I got a head full of ideas/that are drivin’ me insane
— from Maggie’s Farm by Bob Dylan
Despite battling severe coronary artery disease for more than two decades and incurable high-grade prostate cancer for almost 12 years, I managed to reach the grand age of 70.
Although I haven’t (yet, at least) suffered a heart attack nor developed a remote metastatic tumor, I bear multiple arterial stents, surgical scars and damaged tissues from radiation as souvenirs of life-extending medical care. Thanks to the ongoing treatment that keeps my illnesses at bay, I endure hot flashes, muscular atrophy and cramps, diminished libido and a host of other nasty side effects. Plus the wear-and-tear on my joints, discs and other parts of the musculoskeletal system from some 65 years of hard skiing, among other forms of physical self-abuse, saddles me with chronic pain.
One might not realize the above by looking at me but it’s nonetheless true. (And since I’m unlikely to live past 75, it did occur to me while writing that this is a pre-obituary of sorts.)
My mother Anne, wife Christine, sister Reissa and brother Anthony all predeceased me, so I survive alone in my immediate family with Milton, my 94-year-old father who’s practically blind from macular degeneration, lacks mobility and suffers with advanced dementia. I serve as the sole guardian, legal and otherwise, responsible for his welfare.
But before the violin section starts playing I must say the following:
I’m also privileged enough to have the time and resources to take good care of myself, while also helping others. And over the course of seven decades I have enjoyed a life of such remarkable relationships and experiences that it would be obnoxious to whine any further. The current state of the world, more than any personal struggles, is to blame for my pessimistic mindset.
I’ve traveled to (and within) 65 or so countries, including Brazil, China, India, Japan, Russia and South Africa, not to mention all 50 American states and seven Canadian provinces. In fairly recent years I swam with humpback whales in the South Pacific waters off Moorea; scuba dove on the deep wreck of the SS Thistlegorm in the Gulf of Suez; skied down the slopes of the Andean volcano of Chillan; and trekked to the summit of Tanzania’s Mount Kilimanjaro. I photographed the ruins of Angkor Wat in Cambodia, Karnak and Luxor in Egypt, and Pompei in Italy, as well as thousands of migrating wildebeests in the Serengeti of Africa and gannets on Bonaventure Island in the Gulf of Saint Lawrence. Someday, perhaps, I’ll visit the Himalayas, Machu Picchu and even Antarctica.

One might wonder why I would forego having my own family in favor of globetrotting. Let’s just say that the future of humanity was never something in which I’ve put much faith. (But by adopting my beloved Tibetan Terrier Benjamin not long ago, I admit to a healthy affection for dogs.) It’s enough for me to witness as much of the beauty of this world — the only one I’ll ever know — as possible in this lifetime.
A few years back, for some (likely unknowable) reason, I started formulating and gathering notions on various subjects in my mind. Maybe it’s the psyche’s demand for attention after careers as a business journalist and Wall Street securities analyst, along with nearly two decades of formal education. (I earned university degrees as an undergraduate at McGill in history, then as a graduate student at Stanford in journalism and at NYU in business administration.) And when I began sharing these notions verbally with others, they surprised me by acting less bored and/or annoyed than I would’ve thought. So I decided to commit them to writing on my blog site, expecting to add, subtract and modify over time.
I’m well aware that my opinions tend to make some people uncomfortable. Indeed, I named my now-idle advisory firm Cyrano Equity Research after an iconic character in French drama who fought tyranny, hypocrisy and cowardice with his sharp sword and sharper tongue. In the end, Edmond Rostand’s big-nosed Cyrano de Bergerac falls when one of many enemies drops a heavy object on his head!
Here’s to hoping that I suffer a better fate.
On Senescence
Should you be fortunate to arrive at a great old age in fairly good health you will also live through the loss of almost everybody you loved and cared about. (Note that my siblings, Reissa and Tony, were both heavy cigarette smokers and died at 68 and 58 years of age.)
On Religion
Proud as I am of my Jewish heritage, religion holds no existential appeal to me. But I have always considered myself an agnostic rather than an atheist. As I see it, an atheist believes there is no God whereas an agnostic doesn’t believe there is a God, a subtle distinction that shows appropriate metaphysical humility.
On Science Fiction
A lifelong fan of Star Trek and other speculative tales, I believe that science fiction says more about the time when it was written than about the future it portrays.
On Politics
The white-supremacy aspect of the MAGA movement is overrated relative to its male-supremacy component. Perhaps this explains the inroads, however temporary they may be, the Republican Party has made with Black and Latino men. It almost-certainly explains the disproportionate exit of women compared to men in the Donald Trump Administration.
The critical flaw in democracy is that most people are politically ignorant. Many simply stop believing in it when they’re unhappy with the outcome of elections, just as many believe in free speech until they disagree with what’s being said. In human history, democracy has been an aberration rather than the norm. The seductive power of demagogues must be checked lest autocracy take hold, probably leading to war and other disastrous outcomes. Blaming the Democratic Party and liberal excesses for the popularity of Donald Trump and the MAGA movement is a dangerous waste of time. Who today blames the political opposition in Germany for the rise of Adolf Hitler and the NAZI Party?
On Canada
As an “AmeriCanadian” dual citizen for about 25 years, I’m appalled by President Trump’s abuse of Canada with juvenile insults and punitive tariffs, which should be reserved for America’s enemies. By the same token, I have long failed to see an overall advantage to being Canadian over American. Lower levels of violence and a cheaper, fairer healthcare system (but lacking the world-class medical care that the United States boasts) aside, Canadians are stuck with the comparatively limited opportunities of a moribund economy as well as an undesirable climate. Historically, many more people have moved to the U.S. from Canada than the reverse. Content to reside in an affluent so-called Blue state, I wouldn’t want to live in a Red state but neither would I want to return to Canada, even though it’s a generally decent place where most people in the world would be lucky to gain entry.
English-speakers of Canada and the United States are almost the same, indistinguishable to many folks around the globe. The two nations are the product of the same colonialism that subjugated their indigenous people, but America has been cursed from the outset by the Southern slavery-based socioeconomic system that it inherited from European empires. A century or so ago, Canada’s leaders lacked the imagination to negotiate a union (excluding Quebec) with the Americans. This would have offset the power of the Southern states and, in all likelihood, prevented the election of the likes of Donald Trump as president. We would probably be much better off today. Instead, Canada transitioned from being a British colony to a cultural and economic vassal of the U.S. with no political sway in Washington, D.C. And both countries are in trouble.
During the Civil War in the United States, thousands of future Canadians (for Canada didn’t yet exist as a nation) — Including Calixa Lavallee, who went on to write the national anthem “O Canada” — joined the Union Army. Many enlisted in the knowledge that the conflict’s outcome would matter greatly to all North Americans and perhaps the world. In the same spirit, Canadians today need to figure out how to support the resistance to autocracy in the U.S., instead of resorting to silly anti-Americanisms like boycotting wine from the great Blue state of California. Without American leadership, the free world as we know it is in grave danger from China and its client states of Russia, Iran and North Korea.









